Feelings
Sometimes there are days on which you just feel sad. Not because things are going bad, but because there is a guilt that takes over your mind about being away from home. Of course, we all grow up with our parents and siblings and never expect to leave the “nest”. Yet, for some reason, we choose to study or apply for jobs abroad.
As much as we try to explain the passion of wanting to meet different people of different culture, sometimes there is the guilt of being selfish. And with those thoughts, come a lot of sadness of feeling like you are being a bad daughter, at least for me. One thing leads to another and without knowing, I am miserable, thinking of the pain I might be causing my parents due to the distance and lack of physical touch for many months can be heartbreaking for both parties. However, sometimes it is necessary to share this thoughts with someone so you can understand that feeling sad is okay but doesn’t mean you are letting your family down.
Open up
In my case, when I started opening up about the sad thoughts and guilt while living in Europe and my parents being in Canada, I was reminded of how much I have accomplished and the reason of my current situation. I was reminded of how much they love and are so proud of me. I was reminded that no matter what, they will always support me and understand that I am discovering the world in my own way. There are many moments when I wish I could just go back home but then something good happens at world, something funny happens with friends, but to be honest, I am used to being away because I have grown my whole life having many loved ones being away in different countries, as the nickname “miss worldwide”.
Feeling sad is okay as long as you are willing to feel good
At the end, what I am trying to say is that is okay to have this thoughts on good or bad days. It is okay to feel sad if you are growing up away from home because you like the lifestyle better in one country than your native one. Everything is okay as long as you always try to keep in touch with your family, share your thoughts with them, and the memories, including the good and the bad ones. Whenever you have sad feelings like I might do, try to talk to someone. Talk to your parents or friends, trust me, everyone is understanding although they will never feel what we do because some have never packed their bags to move abroad far from the rest.
Here is a ted talk I found on youtube about being home-sick. Do not let people tell you that you asked for it because “you are the one who made the decision”, you did it for a reason and stand by it. At the end, we can always go back home but don’t let the sad thoughts take away from the present experiences you will have because not only are your parents proud of your decision but so am I. Be courageous.
